it's repeating

i didnt know this would repeat again after, er 3 years? hehe, those were really fond memories i would say. but dealing with this issue again after 3 years is a lot different. people have changed, more matured compared to a few years back. and the people that i met after 3 years, are also different, well im talking about all the new friends that has came into my life. well, i might have a better choice now, in fact, it's plural, so that would be choices. some of my choices are in fact not bad! as is, SOME, not ALL. they are good in some ways, but i just cant seem to have that kind of feeling. that's just too ironic sometimes. oh by the way, the one that happened just now, was coming in without warning. gosh! i really had a shock. hehe. but i think i played it well. i hope. hehehe. all i can say is im sorry once again. and everytime i say this, i really mean it, as deep down inside im feeling really guilty. well, i hope i can get my message right across to the others, indirectly, and not to create any misunderstandings.