petrified

i was disturbingly awaken at 3am sharp this morning. coming out from my dream, i heard noises outside, my grandma's voice and my mum's. it took me no time to spring off from my bed and head out to find out what is happening. but before i even ask them, the minute i heard my grandma's voice, i knew that something must have happened to my grandpa. i knew it. i ran down quickly with my mum, while my grandma was striving to walk down the stairs slowly, step by step, as she have problem walking nowadays. the minute i reach my grandpa's room, i saw him lying helplessly on the floor, directly next to his bed. he was looking at us, waiting for help, i could see the fear from his eyes. he was petrified too, he was shocked and scared. mum and i quickly carry him up on his bed. he didnt have strength to move up from the floor after rolling down from the bed. his left elbow was hurt, a 5-cent skin peeled off and i saw blood stain on the floor. for once, i was afraid, i was afraid of losing him. it's not that i wasnt before, but since he has been so sick for the past so many months, i thought he was going to be ok, and for that, i didnt really think much about losing him. but this morning, i was petrified to see him like that, he look really old now, he looks so weak and frail and this thought saddens me a lot. he hasnt been eating much lately, giving us reason that he has no appetite. thus, he's now so weak, i see it so clearly when his hands and legs are moving like parkinson. i talked to my dad yesterday night, we agreed to organise a chanting session for him every sunday evening, informing all my uncles and aunties to gather at my house and chant for my grandpa, just like what we did before for my cousin and aunty last time. i believe we we could get through this together if we're united, if all of us, the chan family would really send daimoku to him, we would have him back, at least we could have him longer.