as planned, two days ago, anchal and i met up to discuss about The Human Revolution that we are reading. she is my study buddy during this study course of THR, we have to meet between Jacaranda Study meet which will be happening tomorrow. we chanted 30 mins before starting our dicussion. we discussed on josei toda's spirit after his imprisonment. and also the hightlighted quotes from the book, most of our highlighted quote were the same ! haha! and then things went on and we relate those quotes and encouragement into our daily life, about what we are going through, challenges and so on. i was surprised to find out that her first 6 months in aus (she's been here for 3 years now) was something like mine, but it was 10 times worst than my situation. so, come to think of it, what im going through now is not that bad after all. but still, i would want to make the best on the reason why i am here. im glad that she'd been very honest with me, sharing some of her inner most problems and thoughts and stuff about her family. but me, im still quite close up about myself, my thoughts and family, i would just share stuff on the surface, not being able to open up to really share the inner depth of me and things around me. anyway, the whole discussion was really great ! i told her we should do this more often ! =)
yesterday's wmt tutorial was really nice ! well, might me the only class that i enjoyed so far. we were grouped in threes for our single shot assignment, but initially, angel and i choosed to do it with just two person in a group, as we dont really know our classmates yet. but then things changed later as there were some sort of adjustments in other groups, so this guy came and asked if he could join our group. and of course we said yes ! cause we always wanted to make new friends. so we start brainstorming and get our ideas across, and went out to the library for a tryout session. it reminds me so much of the time when we were filming 'not a coincidence', so much fun with my friends! and this time, still i choosed to be the man behind the camera, i really enjoy playing around with angles and positioning the camera to create unique frames. i think my potential is not so much being as a character on screen, but behind the scene. when we went back to class, dean asked who would like to share their video, and for once after so long, i stood up and gave him our tape and then he showed it to everyone in the class. for once i was so proud of my workshop outcome during tutorial. dean gave us some really positive comments, and that really made my day so well !
in relation to the previous paragraph, i realise im so vulnerable to external influences. i would be happy because of something, but on the next minute i would DESCEND down if i receive a bad news or comment. very unstable. im so far away from reaching my buddhahood, the absolute happiness that is said in buddhism, the state that no matter what happens, our happiness would not be influences by external circumstances, it comes from inside and from within, the state of enlightenment.
there is a new girl at saint cinnamon today. well, i felt really sorry and pity for her. that's all i've got to say. sigh... and i realise how lucky and fortunate i am.
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