Grace.C

i felt that im living in a pre-planned fix life.. from uni to meetings to work. the past week was fulfilling but i felt really tired, especially on thurs and fri. work from 7am - 6pm on both days, and rushed to kaikan for meeting at 7pm for 5.4 chanting meet and launching meet for Jacaranda and Sokahan. came back at 10am, online for a while and went to bed and repeat the same thing on friday, except that after work i went for a dance practise, in prepartion for 5.3 celebration on sunday. came back at 10pm just now, shower, and here i am bloggin and chatting. i wanted to look at some homeowork, but i just couldnt do it. if i were to read my dossier now, i would dozed off. but at the same time though im tired i dont feel like sleeping. i felt like time here is passing so quickly, im moving to my 3rd month here soon. was talking about it just now with mehak, while we were on the tram heading home from ruks'. it was 2 months ago that we were travelling on the tram going from ruks', that we were preparing for 3.16 dance. she asked me how's my life here so far and i told her im busy with uni work and that im working now. my time are pretty much occupied with 'work', be it uni homework/assignment, or meetings or my part time work. the rest are just extras. ive cut off alot of time on msn, though i still on quite often, but compared to when i first got here, i think i cut off by 50%. i just have to cut down some time on msn, or not my time would be spent in chatting that doing things that should be done, read, h.o.m.e.w.o.r.k.
im not feeling good right now, but i dont know what is going wrong, or maybe i know i just didnt want to acknowledge it. or maybe it's because im feeling really tired now, so all my fundamental darkness are back attacking me again. i have to wake up early tomorrow for jacaranda meeting, but i dont feel like sleeping right now. i just want to sit down, unwind, and listen to some slow music......