Year of Rat

Chinese New Year is just around the corner. I'm feeling the mood already. My uncles from Sabah had just arrived today. It's going to be really merry again this year. I'm gonna meet my cousins and catch up with them. Reunion dinner with relatives. We're gonna gamble with my grandma and uncles. My brother is coming back on eve. We're planning for bai nin sessions. I've started to eat CNY delicacies. Friends planning to come over. Ahhhhh...... CNY, I miss you! I'm soooo gonna enjoy this CNY since I missed it last year.

Good ol' time

I was reading some of the posts in my old blog. It brings back so much memories, it's like reading a person's diary. At times I can't remember what I blog about. Especially those I wrote in a way not to reveal too much of what I was dealing it back then. And then I came to this entry dated Feb 19, 2006, that reads,

"the night felt so lonely without my him.. we used to kacau each other.. he'll come into my room and sleep on my bed.. take all my pillows and blankets + bolster and put it in his room.. how annoying of him.. and i will go to his room, sit on his bed and start 'admiring' myself in front of the big mirrors.. checking my pimples and acnes on my face =p and he will show his disgusted face.. hehe ! and then he'll come into my room and shoo me or trick me off from my computer as he always says he need to check something urgent in the net but end up chatting happilly in msn.. that's the typical scene we have at home.. "

Reading the sentence in Italic, I couldn't help but to laugh and laugh and laugh - at least for a minute of two !! You certainly think I'm an idiot if you see how I'm laughing now. LOL !HAHAHAHAHA!
Gosh ! I miss him so much !!!

Family Matters

Recently I received a news from my dad regarding some "family matters". It's funny how I term it as "family matters" though the whole scenario was kickstarted by just one person. But if you don't already know, that's how things work in my family. There is main broadcaster and some mini stations under it. LOL! But, really, everything that happens within the family would affect one another in one way or another.
Anyway, I manage to spoke to my cousin, she's really in deep trouble I would say. I feel empathetic to what she is dealing now (and more to come in the future) and this comes with a BUT. I hope through this ordeal, she would turnover a new leaf. What's next is to really show repentance and to think twice before making any decisions - decisions that at times would strongly influenced by emotions. And that this shall serve as a valuable lesson to what ah gor said "that freedom comes with responsibility". It will be hard to earn back a trust that has been broken, but it is not impossible. It takes some time, and all future actions would be able to help in gaining back the trust. The worst is yet to come. I know and understand how upset and devastated you feel now, I wouldn't imagine myself in this situation but, really, as I'm part of the family, I truly undertand it's extremely hard to deal with. But I guess there is no way out, just have to face it. =)

p/s: Cheer up! It's not the end of the day. We shall go shopping like crazy to de-stress you! =p

Taking a step back to look at this matter, once again I could feel the bond between family members - this family helping that, and that helping another (along with some complains of course =p). It reminds me on this incident happened many years ago when I was about to step into high school. And how because of the support from other families, this particular family was able to survive through the darkest period of their life. Again, of course with some reasonable complains, but I think those are fine as I know deep down inside, they are really offering help sincerely. As I'm reflecting on my family now and stepping another step back to look at it in a bigger picture, I feel really fortunate to be able to share my life in my family, not just my immediate but all my paternal extended families. Of course, it's not perfect. It's like a rollercoaster ride, with ups and downs, but at the end of the ride, you look back and said "WOW, that was really good !"